My brother's son

I was told today by my Dad that my nephew was just diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. Wow, that is such a horrible diagnosis. I did a lot of research and found there are many "guesses" as to what may cause this. One is that if a mom eats lots of tubers- potatoes, beets, etc while pregnant, the toxin in these can cause damage to the fetal pancreas. Another thing is giving cereal to babies under 7 months. A biggie seems to be giving pasteurized dairy products to babies, specifically under 9 months. Oh- and vaccines can contain a virus that initiates the response for diabetes to begin. Yikes!

My nephew was a twin and so far his sister is ok. I did find that red hot chile peppers (capsicum) is proving to reduce insulin dependence.

I feel sad for my brother and his family. That's such a heavy thing to hear right after Christmas. I'll be sure to pass on the word about stevia and birch tree sugar. Right now, I'm going to be sure to avoid tubers for the rest of my pregnancy. (I just had baked potatoes two nights in a row!)

The baby can smile!

How amazing that a little 3 and 1/2 inch baby is practicing smiling, frowning and squinting! I wish I could peak in and watch. My belly is getting much bigger. I'm about 31 inches around the belly. I don't have a scale but I guess I weigh about 118lbs. My breasts are growing, too. It's nice to wear a bra that doesn't wrinkle! My left breast has been very tender to touch for about 3 weeks now. I am assuming it's pregnancy related. I know each pregnancy is different. I know my breasts were both tender with Trish but with the others I was nursing so I'm sure things are different. We are all still so excited. I'm finally back to eating more leafy greens. There was a week there that it just seemed like too much trouble to chew! I was eating softer foods. My teeth didn't hurt, but maybe it had to do with digestion. Who knows? I also had an incredible salt craving the other day. I'm sure I need to drink more water. I'm going to start with my hypnobabies. I'm really looking forward to that!

Danny told his brother and sis in law

Well, actually, Danny's father told them. They were happy for us. I could hear Danny's side of the conversation and he said, "she's happiest when she's pregnant" which he said with such pride I felt amazing. I guess I really don't complain when I'm pregnant. I'm too full of awe.

Dad comes to town!

Dad came to visit! It was great seeing him! My house wasn't spotless and the dishes piled up but Dad never complains about that! He had a horrible cough and almost didn't come. I'm so glad he did. It's been since springtime since I saw him. I wish I could have stayed up and talked with him later in the night as the children were asleep but I was just too tired to stay awake. I miss our chats. I miss him. He told me he's still waiting for the call from me to ask him to fly out and drive me "home" in the RV. I'm waiting for that, too. It would be easier if I could see him more often. I am glad I get to talk on the phone and send emails. It could be worse, I guess. Leaving is always hard. Roman was giving me a hard time about crying- "you always torture us by crying whenever someone in your family leaves!" he said honestly but without thinking of my feelings. I cried anyway. I really didn't want the time to end. But it did. Perhaps by the next time I see him my belly will be totally full of baby. Or he might just wait to come out when the baby is born. Either way, I just can't wait to hug him again!

I wore maternity clothes

My Dad came to town (yipppee) and he brought with him some maternity clothes from my sister. I wore them and they felt nice and loose and comfortable. A little big, but just what I wanted!! I'm so glad she sent them. I looked so fashionable in her clothes! I had maternity clothes that I had made with the boys. It was summer so I wore jumpers that were great because they didn't have any elastic or anything on my stomach. I can't stand that. But now that it's cool, I can't wear those. So my sister sent me some maternity jeans and capris. They are ok over my stomach. Not so bad so far.

I keep thinking I feel this little one moving. Usually after dinner. Hmmmm, I'm sure there's not too much longer to start feeling that one of a kind feeling- I can't wait!

Amazing!

I was just reading that the baby at this age is using his or her hands to explore. The baby loves to touch his or her little face, exploring the mouth, too! How amazing! I still look in the mirror and wonder how it's getting along in there. It's about the size of a plum. Wow. I am thrilled that things are going so well. I really think I ought to get a measuring tape and see how big around I am. I think that would help me see that there is plenty of room in there. I tried to listen with the fetascope today. I couldn't hear anything. I thought perhaps...? but it's just too tiny. I remember my midwife with Roman telling me that she wanted to "confirm" my pregnancy by listening with the doppler. I told her no. I didn't want those waves in this tiny baby's body. Can't you "confirm" it other ways??? She honored that, of course, and didn't use the doppler. She would try with the fetascope every visit until she could finally hear it. She did the same with Gino. With Gabriel I had a different midwife but she also honored my request. Now both made me agree that when I was in "labor" that I allow them to use the doppler. I said ok. But I only let her use it with Roman and Gino twice. It was never used with Gabriel- no time!!! Of course, with Trisha, I used the doppler. It wasn't until about my 7th month with her when I started taking Bradley classes that I even know there could be problems. I asked my midwife about it and she said that she didn't even own a fetascope. Oh, well. I didn't push it at that time in my life. Now I get totally amazed that so many people get a "routine" sonogram and even get the 4d sonograms by non-professionals. Heck, Tom Cruise even bought a sonogram machine when his wife was pregnant! I am amazed that generally no one is concerned about how that effects the unborn. I think a skilled midwife can figure out any physical abnormalities and then take it to the next level if necessary. But perhaps midwives rely too much on "modern" machinery to listen to instinct. Hopefully I'll find one here that does. In the mean time, I feel confident that all is well and that there's nothing I would do to "deal with" any abnormalities anyway. You know, my aunt was told twice that her babies were going to born with down syndrome. Twice they offered abortion. Twice she refused and twice perfectly healthy babies were born.

Midwife

I still haven't found the motivation to look for a midwife. There are several that are in the area and highly recommended. I called one who said she would be in town at the end of June and another never returned my phone call. I really don't want to go to an "office" for my visits. I've probably written about this already, but I'm working through this. I really like having a midwife. I know I can birth on my own without any problems but I really like the support of a woman there, too. She can be there any time of day or night bringing necessary herbs or homeopathics. She can birth a breech or help give ideas to flip a posterior one. She is full of knowledge that is gained just as those supportive women had centuries ago. That's a great thing to have that security. I know Danny would be able to be a great support and he even said we "didn't need anyone the next time"! But my concern is what if the kids are demanding or if one is sick or needs a heiny wipe? Also, I really like the prenatal visits. I like the bond that is created between the midwife and I. I like hearing about other birthings and feeling the passion about births that she shares. I really hope to find that person. I miss Liz and Gail. They were so great. I just want to find someone who trusts that I know what to do when it comes time to birthing. That I know my body. That I know that I need to lean forward to birth. That respects me as a women and a mom who has given birth 4 times before. I don't want a director or someone to count while I breathe. I want an advisor. I'm certain I'll find the right person. I just need to get the urge to start looking.

Getting ready for Christmas

I love Christmas. I love buying gifts for those I love and thinking of how I can make each day of Christmas feel special and exciting for the children. They love to decorate and do little things like a Christmas puppet show or write Christmas poems. Trisha filled up our 25 days countdown with some great ideas.

I love thinking that this time next year I'll have a little 6 month old enjoying the lights and spirit as much as the others. Wow- I'm so lucky!!

Feeling good

I really must say how great I feel being pregnant. I feel lots of energy, happiness and more organized thoughts. I still have over 200 days to go but it really seems to be going so well. I went to see Dr. Rhobirds and he said the baby is "happy, healthy and excited to be here". I can feel that, too. Dr. Rhobirds does energy work and is also a chiropractor. He is really an interesting fellow and says some amazing things. He also said that my body loves to be pregnant and that this is going to be the best and easiest pregnancy and birth of all of them. I still need to find a midwife. There are several to choose from. I just have to find someone who really fits with me. I don't want someone who is over commited, either. I still have plenty of time.

Gabriel sat with me the other day and watched some births. I put the sound on mute but the births were home and birthing center births so they were nice to watch. He liked it. He still says he is going to "catch" the baby. That would be awesome!

New belly shot

I guess most of my "belly" in the photo is bloat. I weighed myself and I'm a hefty 112. Yes, 112. I know I've gained but I really started out skinny. I feel great and I'm doing lots of walking. Perhaps that's why I haven't gained as much as usual.

Thanksgiving

When I was pregnant with Patricia (same time of year nearly exactly 13 years ago) I really had a hard time with smells at Thanksgiving. I couldn't stand all the mix of cooking smells coming from my inlaws kitchen. It was a lovely Cuban Thanksgiving with pork, black beans and rice, turkey, flan and stovetop stuffing. I really couldn't stand it. I went upstairs for a while just to get away from the nausea. This time round I feel much better. I have a little bit of a lower back ache from standing and I feel a little bit of nausea (mostly because I know I need a walk) but I feel good. I'll get the turkey going and then go for a walk and enjoy all the lovely smells of pumpkin pie, turkey, dressing, and cookies.

I am really excited about the belly I'm getting. I really have to take a photo.

Baby transitions from embryo to fetus!

Today the baby is officially a fetus! True bones are starting to replace the cartilage signaling the transition from embryo to fetus!

Have to un-button my pants

Wow, the last two days I've had to unbutton my pants to feel comfortable. I remember when I was pregnant with Trisha and I was teaching. I had to wear clothes that weren't sweat pants so I would use a rubber band to loop around my button, through the loop and back over the button! I'm so glad I don't have to worry about that! I just wear pants around the house that are unbuttoned with a long shirt! I really should think about getting some maternity pants. It's funny how my body is ready to go! I also have to make my stretch mark oil. So far with all my pregnacies I have been spared except for one on my left thigh. (I'm thinking genetics is the key. My grandmom had 10 children and no stretch marks. But she said cocoa butter was the key! I'll certainly mix it into my blend!) I am a bit worried about being here in the desert and trying to keep my skin hydrated! I think my timing is right though. It won't be so hot when I'm doing most of my stretching in May. We'll see. I just have to drink drink drink!

Danny told his Mom and Dad

Danny's Dad came to visit us this week. Danny told him of our newest one. He was very excited as was Danny's mom, Cary. I'm not sure if he told his brother yet. Time is passing by quickly!

Tried to take photo

I tried to take a photo of my belly, but it didn't look any different in the photo! I do feel differently. I can see that my uterus has grown and that has pushed up my "belly" so I do stick out even if that's not where the baby it. I guess next week I'll try with another picture. I feel terrific!

Airshow worries

Today was the airshow. I had a hard time. I arrived and saw a huge amount of exhaust and felt scared for the baby. I mentally put a protective shield around the baby and hoped that would help. I still felt worried. I took some homeopathic detox when I went home. It made me feel a little better. I have a tight chest and a bit of a sore throat from the exhaust. Geez, I was most worried about the noise from being there- not thinking about the jet fuel smell. I know all will be well. All will be well.

Feeling the "bump"

I sat down and leaned forward today and could feel the bump! Wow! I'll have to take another picture and see if there is a difference. My pants still fit though they are a little bit tighter in the front. I looked again at names today. It's not so easy. I thought I really liked the name Hope for a girl, then I asked Gino if he liked it-he made a star wars reference- "YES! A New Hope". So that name is out. It's fun to look. There are so many names and so many of them have ties already. Like the name Spencer for a boy- I love it, but I taught a Spencer and lord almighty I couldn't be reminded of that! Trisha made a list, too. She likes the name Ria.

I changed my blog look. I think I like it like this, though it's a bit hard to see photos. I may find another I like. We'll see. I really like celebrating my pregnancy. This blog really helps!

Hungry!

I can't seem to eat enough food. Wow. I forgot how much food I eat when I'm pregnant. I even ate bread and cheese today to try to "fill up" (I usually don't eat gluten or dairy.) It may be also because I'm feeling the need to walk to kick out the little bit of nausea (works every time) so I'm working up an appetite. I'm making a hearty beef stew for dinner. That ought to do it. I went to bed hungry last night and boy what a mistake that was. I woke up starving and dizzy!

Gabriel was showing me all the things he's going to teach Baby Jade. He's going to teach the baby to ride a bike, go in circles, make o's in water, fly on the flying turtle.... He's adorable!

Baby gets legs today!

Leg buds are coming out!! How amazing- nice, strong, fast, legs! I can't wait to "race" you in your fast shoes!

Range of emotions

I had a great time at the Halloween Party. I felt very silly and goofy and had a great time. I've been feeling all the emotions lately. I wonder sometimes why that happens to women when pregnant. Do we need to show the new little soul how emotions work? Do we need to experience all of these emotions to be back in touch with ourselves? Why do I cry during commercials? Why do I get nail spitting angry when I can't find what I did with my keys? Why do I feel incredibly hopeful? Why do I feel like the end of the world starts in Vegas? Why do I love my dogs, and then 5 minutes later want to open the gate so they can run away?? Why do I get so angry that my dishwasher doesn't clean the dishes? Why do I feel so happy and full of peace even though those around me are not? Hard to say. Pregnancy really is an interesting time. I still feel totally in control of my emotions most of the time but I do think I have a lot to learn about myself. I like feeling all the emotions. It feels good to actually let out my emotions rather then keep them level all the time.

I liked being Virgie from Balmer, hon. (enjoying the slots here in Vegas) She was a great character and a great relief of silliness. Happy Halloween to all!

Some more comments....

I am in tears ...wonder unfolding ...so precious
You "Know" your heart communicated this news to me about a month ago

Oh my goodness. I am so excited for you, Dan, Patricia, Roman, Gino and Gabriel. #5 – so wonderful. You are a real hero. I didn’t expect this and yet somehow I knew. Good for you. I hope you are also whirling and happy but why do I even question that. I can’t imagine that you wouldn’t be thrilled.

Amy, I am SOOOO happy for you! I know how much you wanted this baby and this baby wanted you. Congratulations to you and the whole family. Your baby chose a wonderful Mommy!

Congrats Amy and family!!!! Yippeee!!!!!! I'm excited for you. Here's to more birth and breastfeeding joys:o)

It was so great to hear the good news!!! I just wish I could give you a big hug!!!Congratulations DeArmas Family!!! You will have to change your name to Lucky Seven Arrows.I Love You and Miss you!!!!Come home Soon.

Congratulations!!! So it sounds like you are a month later then me, ya!! I was thinking about our families. You will probably have a girl and I will have a boy so we will both have 2 girls and 3 boys. I'm excited for you!

I'm so happy for you, congratulations again! and yes I had tears in my eyes reading this, as will all of you. I'm already placing bets its going to be a girl... rule of 3 in the Schwartz family.... :)

Congrats Amy, How exciting. I am so happy for you. Welcome to the big leagues---hehe

The news is out!

It was perfect!! We set up the webcam so I could watch the reactions live!! It was the next best thing to being there. I had to re-do for Angie who wasn't there, but it was great to be able to hear her reaction, too!! I also called Andy and Holly who, of course were thrilled! (Holly and I get to be pregnant together again!!) Tracy was in OC so I called her and had her watch. She knew as soon as the music changed!! It was so wonderful talking to her, too. She said she had a dream I was pregnant!!

Now, if I could just get a hold of Dad and Jim and Kathy...

I finally talked to Dad! It was a little bit of a give away as I was sending the video, but it finally was watched and was awesome! He said he was excited and is going to give me a big kiss when he visits! They all were happy and send congratulations!!! Yippee!

How I'm going to tell my family...

I can't wait anymore!! It definitely not something I'll be able to do in person so I thought this might be the next best thing. I know we all usually wait a little bit longer but I am so excited and I really just need to share the news!

I plan to call my Dad's house and have Dawn or Tracy open this on youtube or something...

Heartbeat starts today

I imagined all day the starting of this one's tiny heart. How amazing! This first month is flying by. The baby's home is the size of a grape. I told the children and they loved it. Gino said he heard the heartbeat today. He also said my belly is getting bigger. Gabriel got Baby Jade an apple today. He says "she just opens her mouth and it dumps right in!"

Told some more friends

I was eating a nice, big delicious salad today at LL which reminded me to share the news. Smiles couldn't have been bigger. I think Trisha is the most excited about me sharing the news because she really wants to talk about the pregnancy. I am so glad she is so excited. She's such a wonderful person. She and I were looking at names together. I'm so glad I have her to share with and talk with. She really is awesome!

Why I love being pregnant and birthing

Why do I love being pregnant? Why do I love birthing and raising children? Hmmmm. I've been thinking about that all evening. Why do I get so in to it? Why do I dive in and learn everything I can? I imagine it's for lots of reasons. Let me think here...I don't get to play field hockey on a team anymore. I don't get to play softball with the women's league with my sister. I can't play summer lacrosse with my other sister. I never just go for a jog or hike or bike ride. I've changed. I'm not fast anymore. I'm not as strong as I used to be. I'm not really an athlete anymore. I miss that. I miss the challenges, the game the results from practice and hard work. But....I've found something else I love and enjoy to the fullest even more. It's being pregnant and having children. I love it. I love everything about it. It's something I'm pretty much totally in charge of- with good advice. It's all mine- with loving support. It's a goal-with shared wisdom. It's an adventure-that has happened before, though will be different every time. It's how I learn so much about myself. I love preparing for pregnancy and the wonderful conversations with my husband about how life changing this is. I love being pregnant and birthing. From the could I really be...? to the dip stick results to the telling of friends and family. I love the huge smile on my husband's face when he knows that he gets to be another one's Daddy. I love when I grow out of my pants and sit on the couch, unzip my pants and just hold my rounding belly. I love feeling that little bit of nausea to remind me of my journey at hand. I love finding out what's happening with the baby today. How big is she? What has she accomplished with me in forming this new body? I love the first flutters of movement and the later large moving elbows and knees. I love making tea and sipping and thinking about how it's toning my uterus. I love the dreams. I love baby hiccups. I love the look on the children's faces when they watch the baby kick an object off my belly. I love when my child lays a head on my belly and just enjoys the warmth and rhythms. I love looking in name books and saying the names aloud to see how they fit. I love looking in the mirror and seeing a smile come back because I'm thinking about the miracle inside. I love the first twang that means I will soon meet this new one. I love the feeling when I know I can bring on a surge and be in control enough to bring it and open to welcome the baby. I love the feeling of the urge to push being satisfied. I love the feeling of the baby's head all hairy and slippery when I reach between my legs and feel it. I love that last push when I feel that instant relief and accomplishment as I listen to the soft, first breath of someone else who has just worked hard,too. I love the first time the little pink slippery one nurses and feels that peace and comfort of home and security. I love being pregnant. I love birthing my children. I love playing with them and watching them grow. I love them. I love being pregnant and birthing. I want to do it right and see how the miracle happens. I want to learn all I can about it. What's new in pregnancy? What herbs are still most beneficial? What about the birthing? How great it would be to rent a place on the ocean in Southern Florida and just birth there in my own island with no one around but my family or on a bean bag chair or a birthing ball or in a cabin in the woods or wow- what about in the RV at Yellowstone? I read, I read I read. Books books books, internet, magazines, etc etc. What else can I know? What's the best food? What should I avoid? What if there are twins, what if, when, how, etc etc. And then....The new baby- wow! That incredible feeling of heavy, pink, slippery, warmth when I first feel the joy that just left my body. The immediate connection I feel as the little pink one opens his squished eyes and looks at me. The smiles that fill the faces of my other children as they meet their new sibling. The "phew" from my loving, excited, proud husband who carried me for the last few hours.

I love being pregnant. It isn't a "pregnant thing". It's one thing I love. What I treasure. What I can only do one more time for the rest of my life. It doesn't take the place of my other loves- my husband, my children my family. It just is something that adds to it. It gives me an additional focus and ability to gain wisdom. It gives me a responsibility I wholeheartedly treasure and take on.
I really am looking forward to enjoying and sharing the pregnancy with those I love. I am so lucky to have this opportunity once again. I will always love and get pleasure from being pregnant with and birthing and raising our children. I am the most fortunate woman on the earth!!

I still can't stop grinning

I look so silly in this picture but that's just me everytime I think!! I couldn't be happier then I am now. I have been wanting our 5th for so long! It feel so right. I don't feel any worry or fear or concern about timing or place. Everything is right. I feel strong and healthy. I love talking with Trisha about the baby. She is old enough now to really understand how it's so wonderful and amazing. Gabriel checks every day to see if my belly is "big" yet.

What my friends are saying....

"HALLELUJAH!!!!! Congratulations!!!! Many, many warm hugs and high fives to you!!! What a very lucky baby to be finding its way into your warm, funny,energetic, loving family! More love to share!!! I can't think of a familybetter suited to welcome another child to its midst. Sending great love, and jumping for joy!"

"Anyhow, I am so thrilled at this news! I wish I was close by enough to baby you and watch your belly grow!! Lots of hugs & kisses to you – I wish I could say congrats to you in person!! I hope all the best for your pregnancy and that you will get to see this spirit baby soon…. I can’t believe how fast you got pregnant!! One fertile woman you are when you put your mind to it!!
Nurture that little baby inside you and take good care of yourself."

"I would do a big "woo hoo" holler for you, but I might wake the kids so I'll tell them when they wake up in another couple of hours and we'll do a big one together. I am just so happy for you, I am sending you big hugs and lots of love. I hope you're feeling well and get lots of rest (yeah, right!). It must be so exciting to know some of the history you've had with this spirit already. Wow, that is just so precious. You must already feel so deeply connected to her. I'm mentally doing a happy dance for you. yay yay yay!!!"

"Oh Amy, I am so happy with you!! I cried when I read your blog. It is so exciting!
I so much wished I could be with you. Oh I am so excited for you!!!!! It is such a wonderful thing to be part of, to witness, to experience!"


"Wow, that's great! That was quick!"

I am thrilled for you and Danny....absolutely.I will look at your blog from time to time.Please take good care of yourself. And please let me know what I may do or assist you with at any time. Simply request. Loving support always. I am in your cheering section.

First Belly picture... I'm already bloated! It's funny. It's like the instant I become pregnant my body remembers and gets going!! I look forward to a nice full, round belly!


The dip stick shows two lines!!

I'm Pregnant!

I found out this morning with positive pregnancy test! I was so excited I was literally jumping up and down. Danny was excited, too. He was grinning and grinning!! So you will be here soon my little baby Jade. June 26th is your estimated day of arrival. I am so glad that your birthday will be near Trisha's. We told the boys this morning. They are all excited. A little confused that babies start out so small- huh? was Gino's comment. Roman gave a wonderful Roman grin and hugged me and Gabriel wants to name the baby Benjamin Franklin "The Jet" Rodriquez. I don't think I'll stop grinning all day!! Danny wants to wait to tell our family- he says, whether you like it or not we are old farts! I told him that I was in great shape and he agreed. I have no worries. I know this baby wants in and isn't going anywhere- unless there is something wrong with the body we are making together. But that's so unlikely!!!

Feeling nausea

I'm feeling nausea! I'm on day 19 and I'm looking forward to a pregnancy test in less then a week!

I dreamed I was a school teacher last night. Hmmm, not really connected. I really hope to get closer to baby Jade.

I still keep feeling a "twin". I wonder if it's just imagination. I really felt I was asked if "I could bring a friend". I suppose it's always possible. I know this is the last time I will be pregnant. I turn 40 in January and I want to be able to see great grandchildren!

Dream of holding

I dreamed I held a baby last night- amazing!

Feeling fertile, feeling excited!!

Connecting...

I felt like I could see and feel the oval of our spirit baby. We have nicknamed her Spirit Baby Jade. Jade can be a beautiful purple color as well as green.

I really want to dream about her. I may have dreamed about her in a very unusual dream- I'll have to tell that some time. The one with the baby seal and the infant in Alaska!

I am really looking forward to my fertile time approaching. Danny had a sore throat but I feel he is trying to avoid antibiotics to stay "pure".

I already feel Baby Jade is part of our family. The children were playing spirit baby tag last week!

Wanting a baby

I have felt the desire to have another child for 3 1/2 years now. Gabriel was just 6 months old when I started feeling it. I read the book, Spirit Babies, and felt like "phew, I'm not going crazy! Babies really can be "felt" as soon as they want to enter your life!" I never acted on my desire. As a matter of fact, I would totally avoid Danny when I knew it could happen. Looking back, I know I felt like I was overdoing it and overwhelming Danny with too many children. I didn't want him to feel that way. So I put the thought aside. But it would not go away. It was a constant. I couldn't do much without thinking about having another baby. Year passed and I still couldn't. Then, I got sick.

I felt like my tonsils in part became a problem because I wasn't communicating with Danny or the baby. My tonsils eventually healed. Danny and I eventually talked about me wanting another baby. I said that "of course I could". It was great to talk with him. I often hide myself and my needs and wants because I don't want to add to his load. But I felt better now.

I had a great cleanse and felt my body was physically ready, too. Danny and I talked again. Was I sure? Was it just my hormones (being 39) telling me it's now or never? We agreed that I would have a consult with Walter Makichen. If there was indeed a spirit baby with me, we would proceed. If not, I'd certainly not call a baby to us and just write it off as hormones.

Well, as you'll see in the podcast, I do have a spirit baby! I knew it! And she has been waiting, just like me!

Podcast

This is kind of out there but it was very helpful for us.

Warning: It's only a one sided phone call recorded. But he mostly did all the talking!!
My consultation is on podcast at...
http://sixarrows.mypodcast.com/index.html