Wanting a baby

I have felt the desire to have another child for 3 1/2 years now. Gabriel was just 6 months old when I started feeling it. I read the book, Spirit Babies, and felt like "phew, I'm not going crazy! Babies really can be "felt" as soon as they want to enter your life!" I never acted on my desire. As a matter of fact, I would totally avoid Danny when I knew it could happen. Looking back, I know I felt like I was overdoing it and overwhelming Danny with too many children. I didn't want him to feel that way. So I put the thought aside. But it would not go away. It was a constant. I couldn't do much without thinking about having another baby. Year passed and I still couldn't. Then, I got sick.

I felt like my tonsils in part became a problem because I wasn't communicating with Danny or the baby. My tonsils eventually healed. Danny and I eventually talked about me wanting another baby. I said that "of course I could". It was great to talk with him. I often hide myself and my needs and wants because I don't want to add to his load. But I felt better now.

I had a great cleanse and felt my body was physically ready, too. Danny and I talked again. Was I sure? Was it just my hormones (being 39) telling me it's now or never? We agreed that I would have a consult with Walter Makichen. If there was indeed a spirit baby with me, we would proceed. If not, I'd certainly not call a baby to us and just write it off as hormones.

Well, as you'll see in the podcast, I do have a spirit baby! I knew it! And she has been waiting, just like me!