Dreams!

I had some dreams last night. I've been going to bed trying to connect with my little one and it was nice to dream again. I'm not sure what these dreams mean, but they are interesting. The first one was about a homebirth. My midwife showed up later after I had an unassisted birth. I caught a beautiful baby girl. She was peaceful and perfect. Just looking into my eyes full of wisdom and love. The midwife was massaging my uterus to bring it back to shape- I had birthed the placenta. She said, I'm thinking there's just one, Amy. I said, that's fine! I'm so thrilled with this little one! She's perfect! The dream ended with my midwife still massaging my uterus and then things were changing a bit. The grapefruit sized uterus was perhaps another baby's head. Hard to say, I woke up.

The next dream was different. Danny was out of town. I was alone. I don't know where the kids were. I drove to St. Rose Hospital. I excused myself at the front desk and went into a room. I easily birthed the babies. They were twins. Twin girls. I surprised the nurses there and they asked me why I was by myself. They weren't mean just curious and thrilled that I did it all by myself. One nurse came in and put a pair of glasses on one baby so I could tell them apart! (I took them off, saying that was silly.) I packed up the babies and left. I met up with Danny, he was thrilled, but sad he missed it- we were in a lobby of some sort. Maybe an airport? Next thing I knew we were at an outdoor concert hall. I was to take the place of my friend Rachel to sing at this huge open air concert I walked around the loop trying to find Diana who was my guitarist. The twins were suddenly toddlers, toddling behind- one wearing glasses! I found Diana and got started. But I announced to the crowd that I had just birthed twins that morning. I was actually standing there with a huge pad and adult diapers one under my pants! The crowd cheered and I sang Alison Kraus. Danny offered to play with the twins at the park and I just sang and sang, though I could watch every minute of Danny playing with the girls.