Another dream...

I dreamed that I was at a huge prom like dance. Everyone I knew was there- everyone! Even Sandy J. from high school- she was a major player in this dream. Anyway, I went to this "dance" by myself and spent the whole time looking for Danny who was no where to be found. They played 80s music and everyone was wearing 80s style clothing. I danced a bit but became so distressed about not finding Danny that I couldn't stay. I drove off in my red camaro. As I left I looked back and saw that the hall was actually Lansdowne High School gym (my alma mater). Our junior prom was there. Strange.

I don't know these people here. I just googled 1986 prom and these lovelies appeared! I love the white tux and hairstyles!

Cleaning Out

I've been bit by the "get rid of it" bug. Danny laughed at me and said, "Somebody is pregnant!". It seems that when I get pregnant I get concerned about things like that. I've been sorting through clothes and the master closet. It was packed and still had boxes unopened from our move. I found a huge laundry basket of socks and wash cloths. I can use the cloths but the socks? I'm thinking of just throwing them all out. I know some match, but we've done without them for this long! I found a box of 2t boy clothes. I'm going to keep them and then I can always mail them out to my sisters if the baby is a girl. I found maybe 3 "baby" clothes. I gave all mine away when we moved. I was convinced I was not ever going to be pregnant again- or really I convinced myself that I would never get pregnant again! I have 2 big boxes to go to Goodwill. Do they take one shoe without a match?! What the heck happened to the other shoe? Why did I pack one shoe from Maryland? Geez! Next to get rid of is more toys. I will clean out the toy room. There are just too many little toys. I'm thinking a yard sale might be a good idea, but it is a big pain in the neck for stiff like clothes and toys. Maybe if there is something valuable I'll post it on craigslist. Otherwise, I could freecycle and save a trip to the Goodwill. Hmmm, maybe I'll have a free yard sale. That would work.

I did the pendulum test

I stumbled across a "way" to tell if you are having a boy or a girl. You use a pendulum (wedding ring on a string, etc) and put it above your belly. If the pendulum swings from right to left- it's a girl. If it swings in circles- it's a boy. So, I tested over my belly and it's a girl! I thought it was kind of weird so I started putting it above my boys. For each of them it went in circles. So, either it's telling me I'm a girl or the baby is a girl. I'll have to try it on Trish and see what happens. It was fun! I was really amazed as I did it time and time again over my belly and the pendulum would be starting to go in circles and then come to a hault and start strongly swinging from side to side. Really neat!

Lydi's visit

All is well! Lydi told me that I looked healthy and not "small" at all. She said that most people are used to looking at pregnant women who overeat so that's why they I'm being told I'm "small" by others. She tried using her Pinard horn fetascope and still had no luck in hearing the baby with it. I told her that I've been listening and the heartbeat is 130-140. Next time I'll bring down my cheapy fetascope (which works great). She has an interesting way of testing my iron and vit. k (clotting) levels- which makes her judge a level of concern of hemorrhage during birthing. She pokes me in the finger lightly with a lancet and observes the color and "flow" of the spot. She said my blood looks good and has no worries.

Last night Patricia and Danny both listened to the heartbeat. Trish was amazed at the speed of the heartbeat and Danny couldn't have been more adorable...."There's a baby in there!" was his smiley response as his eyes lit up and were brilliant in admiration and excitement. Wonderful!

Update

I am so excited that the last trimester is starting. I am trying to figure out a way to keep my skin from being so dry. It's itchy and dry all over. Not just on my belly but my arms, legs- everywhere! I've been drinking water but perhaps I still need more. My midwife comes today. I still feel great, though I am feeling the "work" of my body a bit more as I get tired midday. I still have some things I want to do before the baby comes. I really have to organize Roman's room, which is now the play room. Way too many toys! Hopefully we will have a yard sale. I also want to clean out the master closet. That's pretty much all I really want to have done for sure. The house has been staying pretty tidy lately. The kids are actually putting stuff away and putting dishes in the sink. Trisha and I sat down to go over meals to make when the baby arrives. She's awesome- she has a huge list of things to make. She also said she'd help with the housekeeping but assigned the boys some jobs, too. I'm glad. I really want to just relax and be on a "babymoon". I weigh 131 lbs. I measure 37 chest, 35 belly and 37 bottom/hips. I feel wonderful!

New photo

A little blurry but....

What a dream....

So after my post yesterday, I suppose the baby answered with a connection in my dream! I watched a scene that seemed like out of a movie but I felt the part of everyone in the family involved. There was a mom, dad and daughter- about 12 years old. I was the mom, but I felt the feelings of the dad and daughter, too. We were in a traveling sort of community with wagons, horses and camping-type stuff. Someone rode in to town and gave warning that there was a raid coming that was going to ransack the village. We had to leave immediately. The mom and dad were ready and really pushing the daughter to hurry up. She had several collections of things and really didn't want to leave anything behind. But it was taking too long. Mom and Dad kept pushing- let's go, let's go! But the daughter kept insisting that she couldn't leave her treasures. She went to gather more things and then it happened. The mom and dad were killed. The soldier-like fellows on horse back came in and killed them, dumped the wagon, took some things and then burned what was left. The girl watched from a "safe" spot totally devastated that this happened. She stayed without moving for hours, just full of grief and blame. The dream seems short but the feelings were so real and drawn out it seemed to last for hours.

It felt awful to have that dream. I woke up in the middle of the night feeling so, so sad. I still feel it. I wonder if that is the blame that Walter Makichen mentioned my spirit baby had when I had my consult. I wonder if that's how it happened in that "lifetime". If so, how absolutely horrid. I did the chant sending unconditional love to my spirit baby, heart to heart. I hope that helps. I can't imagine holding on to that much blame.

Wanting more connection...

In the last week or so, I've felt that the baby has been communicating with me less. I remember reading in the Spirit Babies book that around this time (I'm now starting the last trimester- yippee!) that the baby spends a lot of time learning about the human body and its role now as a baby. I really do want to feel more connection still. I lent my Spirit Babies book to my midwife so when I get it back from her I'll re-read the part about that. I know there are many chants I can do but I don't know if that still holds true as I'm getting so close to the birthing time. Or maybe I'll just have a really good dream about the baby. I love the dreams I have of actually holding the baby. It's such a wonderful feeling!

Gino put his head on my belly a few days ago and told me that the baby told him the baby was going to be born on June 25th. He said it again a few days after and hasn't forgotten that date. That's really interesting and I must say he could be right. He had no idea when the baby's "due date" was. I told him "in the summertime when it's really hot". Hmmm, that boy does make me think sometimes. He is so wise. There is so much for me to learn from him!

Gabriel told me yesterday that he hopes the baby is a girl.

Wondering about the heat

We went to the Bird Preserve Monday and it was a lovely 70 degrees. Maybe a bit warmer. The sun was hot and the boys were actually complaining that they were "melting". I can't help but wonder how things will be in a few months when it's 100! I really am not looking forward to it. I get so worn out by just sitting out in the sun or even in the shade on playground days. I don't know how much I'll be able to do it once it starts with the hot nonsense. I don't want to wear myself out and then spend 3 days recovering. Perhaps I'll be ok until May. We'll see how it goes and how my body is dealing with the heat. Hopefully I can find a way for the backyard to be more attractive and playful. I don't know about a pool this year. I honestly will not be able to take care of it and that's just too much to ask Danny to do. Hmmm, maybe a playground set?

This is really silly, I wish I could have done better!

So with my other pregnancies I've used the video camera once a month to see the difference. I haven't done that yet- I need to buy some tapes. So, I put together some video from my camera. This is really awful but it's been sitting around for a couple of days and I thought, what the heck, I need to put some sort of video on this blog! Here it is. I'm 25 weeks now passed my last period. I weigh just about 130 lbs. I get a little confused about the "weeks". I know for sure when I ovulated so I know the baby was conceived on Oct. 3rd. But there are so many calendars and websites that have my dates but come up with a different week or "due date" since my periods were usually 27 days long. I'm not really worried about it. I know there's never a "due date" and the baby comes whenever everything is right. But I guess I try to know what week I am because someone is always asking.

I'm pretty sure that this bathroom is where the baby will be born. I have the toilet, a shower, a tub and my bean bag chair! It also feels like a little den in there and I like that. Who knows, though, I may change my mind. But for now it feels right. I'm sure the whole of my birthing time isn't going to be spent in here. More then likely just the good stuff!! I've also decided that I am going to video the birth. I have only taken pictures with the others but I think I'll video this time. Trisha said I could use her tripod. My sister advised me not to watch it right away, but that it's nice to have. Wow, I'm so, so excited! I keep seeing babies everywhere and I just really am thrilled that soon I'll be holding this one in my arms!

Another shark dream...

Last night I had another shark dream. The last one I had was so gruesome I couldn't even post it! This one was ok. The family was at the beach and enjoying a beautiful day. But the children could only wade in the water because sharks- great white sharks, the ones that jump out of the water in those pictures to get seals- were just beyond knee level in the water. Other people here and there were getting bit- not eaten, thankful (that was my last dream- aaaahh!). So the kids just played in the shallows. We all actually laughed and got a kick out of a shark that was gnawing on a 70s style red yellow and blue folding chair. The day went on beach as usually!