Turning 40

I thought perhaps I should take a photo of myself instead of just my belly since I'm turning 40 tomorrow! I was really amazed to see that I have such green eyes now. I "hide" behind my glasses so much I sort of forget what I look like. I don't spend much time looking at myself! I did get organic makeup for Christmas from Danny (my request) and I've been using it. Not alot, just enough. I remember being in my teens and looking in Dad's bathroom wondering what I'd look like when I was 40. I remember getting on make-up for various plays and having to "draw in" the wrinkles around my eyes and lips. No need for that now!!! Funny, it's always been about being 40. Don't know why that age, but here it is....

I like that I'm turning 40. There's so much I am looking forward to.

During my spirit baby consult Walter mentioned that the spirit was concerned about my dying like I did when we were together in a previous lifetime. I apparently died when she was 12. She thought it was her "fault" and applied that to why I didn't want to "have" her in this lifetime. But I have communicated with her that all is well and that I plan to live a long, long life. I did this again last night- re-assuring- ang immediately it popped in my head that I'll be 52 when this baby is 12. That's how old my mom was when she died. I again reassured the spiritbaby that I'm not my mother and I plan to be 100 when he/she is 60. It's strange how that worry feeling keeps coming back to my mind. This spirit must reaaly be concerned about that. I hope I can eleviate those fears.